ZHan
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One World Sold out for Jesus

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I want..
To inspire
To have hunger
for Jesus.

Great Disciple-Leader.
A front Runner for Jesus.
A booming Rebel for Jesus.

Invade my world. Start with me.
Call me, Choose me, Send me.
Throw me hard into the Harvest field.

Radioactive for Him.
Heavy drinker of the Spirit.
Lavished with Thy perfume.

Be a man. Be childlike.
Everything starts and ends with attitude.
Being attitude is havingattitude problem.

Ack!
Have a nicey-farty and funfilled week.
Eat. Shit. Sleep. Bathe. Mug. With loads of faith.

I want Thee.
Amen!!
Rapture..
SAJC dance production.
Friday and Saturday. Two nights in a row.
@ Kallang Threater

Dancers.
Choreographers.
Alumins.
Audiences.

Red.
Black.
White.
Skin tone.

The repercussion of MTV.
The ticket of sexual liberity.
The reason to capture the media arts for Jesus.

As the curtain swayed along in pitch dark.
My mind was anticipating a good performance.
My heart was deeply contemplating.

Sexplotation.
MTV on stage.
The strength of red-black contrasting.

The first item was though Gothic art of dance bleeding with the contemporary music ringing upon my deafening ears. Memories of Count Dracula. Vampire of the Gothic empire. Stereotype dark black with the significant blood red twin spots. Sensual effect.

The inner being was tremendously offended by the acts of the dance world. Purity seemed to be a conservative paradigm. However, in the name of freedom to express one's inner thoughts has its backlash that contributes to the fall of man. Not to say, the consequences of the losing feminine to sex.

Desire to be feminine is not the issue but being sexual is the cause.

Another trend that sparked my observative mind is the dressing of the moving being. As I would say that the degree of flesh exposed is related to the conviction of the chereographer. Maturity in arts is the product of the art itself. An artist is an art of artistically inclined being.

Every exposure brings an experience. Postive or negative. It has its lesson learnt. I wouldn't say I 100% perceived the whole rapture experience, but what I got home after the curtain shuts is the conviction to release the spirit of God into the art world. To lay hold to the lost and save what is left and redeem what has left. Nothing is certain but God's promise stands.

"God is dead. If there is a God, why do bad things happened? WHY?"
Many a times I realised that men including myself seek the results but not the spirit behind the results. We want evidences but not the truth behind the proof. And how does this complicate Rapture?

Why do men need rapture?
What does rapture mean?
Rapture with the captial 'R' is not the same as the rapture with small 'r'.

rapture - The state of being transported by a lofty emotion; ecstasy.
Rapture - comes from the Latin verb "rapiemur" which means "carried off" or "caught up".

As I was siting @ that red conforty seat.
Inside of me is a battle of the spritual conviction.

Rapture is not a simple word.
It's a culture defining word that puts noone who engrossed on the dance or the dancers on the fence. Either a sith lord of the Dark side or the Jedi Knight of the Force.

Maybe the next generation of youth is built upon this word - 'Rapture'
Maybe I am an addict for Jesus, 'cos I'm a seeker for Truth.
Addiction runs deep. Addiction causes radical action.

Addiction raptures.
I'm sick.

And these are my symptoms:

• Sudden onset of high fever
• Dry cough
• Chills and shivering
• Muscle Aches

Dun they look familiar?

I'm a mask rider. Yeeha!!

Doctor's report on 16th July 2005, 1013hrs
Patient: ZHan K

Re:First strain of armpit hair spotted

Date: 13th, July 2005
Time: approximately 7.30 pm
Location A: right armpit.
Location B: patient's home while watching a hair rejuvenating advertisement. (For address please refer to the attached Appendix A. Page 32. Phrase 3.4.5)

Length: approximately 3 cm.
Amount: countable. one.
Colour: faint black.

Remarks(Last 36 hours):
a high possiblilty of falling off after NAFA 2.4 run with vigorous circular movement under the shoulder blade. The tendency of salvation is not appilcable to current uncertain situation.

Currently, under intensive care unit to prevent any bacteria infection if the sweat particles are caught by the hair. Special attention needed for the next 36 hours until the submission of CAT scan report. If there is found of no possible threat, discharge procedure can be accessed.

Frequent checkup is greatly encouraged to montior the growth and the lifespan. Practice of discretion is needed to maintain the growth and prevent any externality of weakening the rejuventation.

Patient(Last 36 hours):
Mentally unstable due to his unbelief of the sprouting of his first armpit hair. Currently going throught the the Stage one of Refusal Rejection Relief cycle (3R).

Immediate attention and support from relatives and close friends is recommended to assist the patient to accept his condition and be prepare for unforeseen circumstances that might put his hair on the verge of extinction.

Self-abuse is commonly seen when patient is left alone with intensive abrasion markings at the armpit for the last 36 hours.

REMARK(LAST 46 HOURS):

1015hrs
PATIENT ON THE LOSE!! CODE RED!! HIGHEST NATIONAL SECURITY!!

1016hrs
PLEASE INFORM NATIONAL HAIR FOUNDATION WHEN SPOTTED!!

1017 hrs
DO NOT! I REPEAT! DO NOT ENGAGE ANY FORM OF INTERACTION WITH THE PATIENT!! STAY 50 M RADUIS FROM HIM.

1025 hrs
DEAD COUNT EVELATED TO NATIONAL HIGHEST - UNCOUNTABLE.

1030hrs
CEO OF NHF ADDRESSED THE PUBLIC TO REASSURE THEM OF THE SITUATION.

1031hrs
HEALTH MINISTER IMPOSED A NATION-WIDE CREWFEW AND NATION CONSENSUS TO REMAIN SOUND IN ALL ACTIONS TAKEN.

1035hrs
ANTI-SPAWN BLOCKADE ISSUED.

1037hrs
ANTI-SPAWN UNIT (APU) IS DISCHARGED TO ENGAGE WITH PATIENT AFTER 20 MINUTES AFTER THE OUTBREAK.

1038hrs
LOST COMMUNICATION WITH THE APU.


Phrase of moi's week: LISTEN TO INSTRUCTION..

Loyalty cannot be called loyalty when it is not tested.
Faith cannot be called faith when it is not tested.

Just now what Pastor shared during cell had completely and absolutely summerised my week of toil and joy:

Monday:
'Let your Spirit lead you, not your mind nor your mood.
The mind is intellectal and the mood is unstable.'
Unstable? Proved its point.

Tuesday:
' Faith is a process.'
I can prophesy in faith. AMEN!!
MORE MORE!!

Wednesday:
'Knowledge bring forth experience.'
Receptivity. Every leader has something to learn from.
E CCA retreat was a well-fed, pampered and slacky one.
A bulb exploded and the fragments with temperature more than 300++
landed on my toupee. Smoke arose with fallen melted strains of hair on the table.
The burning sensation tickled my nose and recalled my old days in Maris Stella.The school where carcasses turn into dust that piles up a layer of it everywhere.

Now I know what's the difference between
a good leader and a great leader: Inspiration.

Thursday:
'LOYALTY!'
I dunno how to care for myself.
Seriously.. Only when people kick me in my stomach.
Usually all these ain't done very much by guys..
I'm glad and always give thanks to God for creating Eve for Adam.
So.. Mother-of-36 children.. Need supernatural faith!! AMEN!

Now I know what's the difference between
a good friend and a great friend: Loyalty.

Friday:
Christianity is not just a relationship with God.
But a dynamic relationship with Him.
Serve. Worship. Fellowship.

Commendation.
'So if your eye - even if it is your good eye - causes you to lust, gouge it out and throw it way..' Matthew 5:29.
See no evil. Judgemental me.
I was at the upper room of SAC.

:)
I'm tired.
I'm no more a 2nd generation Christian anymore.
Burnt my root. Replaced my wineskin. Erased my past.

These few days as we gathered together to pray.
The songs they sang.
To me are so terribly ancient and soft to me.

My mouth refused to hit the beats.
I dun care whether it is a curse or a blessing.
I worship God my style. My unique way.
Might be unpopular but I dun care.

God looks @ the heart of worship,
not how one perfect one's squeaky voice.
He desires unquenchable worshippers.
Not some mediocre parrots.

That might be one of the reasons,
I disown my past to carry the cross and follow Him.
I dun wan to be another parrot.
1st generation hungry for God..

Woohoohoo!!
'Life is unfair, God is good.'
'Life is good, God is unfair.'
'Life is God, good is unfair.'
'God is life, unfair is good.'
I ponder. I contemplate. I wonder.

Silently I listen to the thousand words they say,
as all were intrigued by their moving says.
Life is so fragile that secrecy is agile.
Silence is darkness when noise sheds light.
Their hearts are dust when pass through the hearth,
that the vessels explode as they gloat aloud.
Grace is ace and virtue is truth.
Cuss! Fraud! Blaspheme!
Silently I listen to the thousand words they say.
Vicious cycle.

Mum had a bad day.
I suffer.
The domestic appliances are spoilt.
I suffer.
My brother's negligence.
I suffer.
Dad had a bad day.
I suffer.
The house is in a mess.
I suffer.
Not doing well for studies.
I suffer.

I suffer.
I cry.
I suffer.
I brawl.
I suffer.
I weep.
I suffer.
I tear.
I suffer.
I wet.
I suffer.
I drown.

Quarrels encourage the cycle.
Suicide ends the cycle.
Athens..
Truely a legend.
For Greek to win the bidding for Olympic 2004,
Athens brought the fame and glory back from the past.
Eliminated all stereotype comments abt them.

Indeed..
Beijing desires that as well.
Olympic 2008 would be fully of anticipation.
New Breed. New World. New Face. New China.
Need a facelifting. Not a weightlifting.
They threw enought weights around.

London won. Paris was the runner up.
Read about the raging dragon on Times.
The impact of Wal-mart and U.S. foreign policies on China..
Tiannamen crisis. House arrest. Massacre. Nationalism.

This is sushi.
Rice. Salmon. All wrapped in artifical seaweed.
Ack!

However, underground churches are booming.
Even though, tough law and orders are being imposed heavily.
Mass media. Under control.

This is wasabi.
Green. Versatile spice. A bit makes a lot.
Ack!

I'm going back for my Sushi now.
Exams are over. But soon it will be back.
Smacking right up on my face.
July. September. August. October. 'SMACK!!' November. December...

This round..
My momentum to rise up to the occassion wasn't there.
Nothing was there lar. History. Maths. Literature. GP. Chinese. Econs.

Although..
I met up with friends to mug like never before especially for me, maybe even worse than 'O' levels ('cos I didn't study much but just embedded myself in the thick black book of mine 0 bible) and squeeze all the knowledge. Knowledge that we should have and ought to be able to reiterate and vomit out with not much effort during exams.

However..
@ places that might not be very much conducive to my state of mind.
Library: Abode. Fetish for tome.
Reading general stuff > Studying real stuff
Starbucks: Coffee. E addiction that upsets my stomach.
Photosnapping. Oh yar.. Met Michelle & I'm Shi Jun's Cousin.
Home: My humble pigsty.
Piles of books and sheets of paper everywhere.

Day 1: GP.
E 3 S's - Stupid. Standard. Spoiler.

Day 2: Shakespears.
Cabpool to college with Janice, Pris & Joy.
Othello. Fine.
Long day's Joureny into Night. Not fine.
Thought that had to memorize the Othello text.
Nearly pee in my pants until they told me 'no need lar!!' in the cab.

Day 3: History & Maths.
International. Fine. 4 pages of rubbish.
SEA. Not fine. 1 page of scribbling.
Thought that it was a 2 hours paper.
TWO HOURS!! but wasn't..
1h 15 mins - International.
15 mins - SEA

Maths. Copy questions seems to be the case.

Day 4: Econs.
My best bet to do well for CA to save my soul. Whatever ZHan..

Met Ber. WeiFen! Caroline. Joslin. After school.
Ate New Zealand ice-cream @ & 30% off.
Chocolate & nuts. 2 scoops in cup with wafer.
Chat. Laugh. Brought XXL Crispy Chicken. Cldn't finish :p
Very refreshing to see them again & spend some time to have a gd laugh. Love those gals very much (self-entertaining :p)..

Day 5: Chinese & Oral.
Cabpool to college with Janice & Pris
TVs and more TVs. TV is a facade.
TV is E dean of the day. TV rulz for that day.
Listening. I got 12 marks.
Mean.. my Chinese teacher told me right after that.
Paper. Worse of all the papers I ever did in my entire life.
Flunk?? NO NEVER!!

Half-a-class outing.
Daniel's the man. He thrusted us out of SA and into HF.
Went around bugging my friends there, before I settled down.
I ate Hans with Meifang. ShiYing. Clara.
I met Bro with his friend. I stole 76s from him.
Snap. Snap. Snap. Shoot. Shoot. Shoot. All's in class blog now.

I asked the most dumbest question (so u can see how dumb I am)..
' Janice. Can I u lend me your shoulder?'
' What.. I should be the one asking.'
' Oh yar hor..'
Doctors say that when a person is braindead,
radical ideas will be exposed.
I was exposed!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...

Oral. Oral. Oral. Oral. Oral. Oral. Oral. Oral. Oral. Oral. Oral. Oral.
I wanted to oral so badly, cos I didn't do a good job for 'O'..
Disruption is what I get as I desire to oral..
Oral. Oral. Oral. Oral. Oral. Oral. Oral. Oral. Oral. Oral. Oral. Oral.
Ack!

Met Caroline again. She was waiting for Ber n Fen!
Sat down to laugh and whine abt everything and anything.
Ber n Weifen! got done with physics. They came. They gave me chocolates. I ate some. They went to change. I waited for them to return den I left.

The last paper for any JC 1.. I think ended then.
Exams are over. But soon it will be back.
Smacking right up on my face.
July. September. August. October. 'SMACK!!' November. December...

Anointed carpet. It's always refreshing to lie down and have fun for awhile. Not to say, do 'soaking' in God's prescene.. Yeeha!!


It's a mistake to come to r.n. empty-handed.
So much to jot down for sermon and announcement.
So much materials to bring home and mediate upon.
These are the die-die-must-have items.


This is how the history of r.n. unfolds..
Wedding. IMW. Camp. Su's van. Lunch.
Picture speaks a thousand words.
This is how we study the history of r.n.!!


When you are feeling low,
when you are feeling cold.
Always remember that there's someone in r.n.
that love you as a whole.
Even when it seems hard to be,
their fat bellies is ready to rent
for your tears to soak
and smile to croak.


May I present to you.. Mr r.n. Incredible
Not just spiritual growth in church, physical growth as well..


1 more reason to love God & r.n.
1 less reason to love Satan.


This is the usual working place for me in church.
Where my backpack dwells, I dwell in there as well.
revival nation's very own merchandise:

Circle of Truth production limited edition Tee-shirt!!!!
These tee-shirts mark the awe of God on how He raise, lead and discipline a group of zealous youth for His glory. The prescene of God. The power of God. The signs and wonders in Jesus' name. Prophetic Evangelism. Angel visitation. Manifestation. His agenda. Everything caught on video.

With faith we brought a thousand-plus professional camera.
With faith we believe we can raise enough funds to bring to pass what God intented.
We need your very support in the fundraising movement and everyone anyone can play a huge role by being one of our main sponsors - get a tee-shirt of any three colours.

3 colours: black, white & sulphur yellow.
6 sizes: XXS XS, X, M, L, XL, (XXL).
16 bucks for students.
18 bucks for young working adults.

Why?
'cos its simply irresistble.
tantalizing to your senses.
appealing to the eyes.
alluring to the mind..

So dun deliberately shun. avoid. eschew. dodge. evade. elude. from me, the next time you see me..

p.s. I aim to sell 50 sets :)